Afraid

Afraid. That's a word that everybody experiences in life but some suffer from it more then they should. I suffer from it a lot in my life because of what I went through. I am afraid. Afraid. Afraid. I am afraid that no one will love me because of what I have done in life. I am afraid that people wont like me for me because I am different and have low social skills. I am afraid that no one will want to marry me because I am a nice guy and women don't like nice guys. I am afraid that people wont accept me because of what happened to me. I am afraid that no one will take the time to get to know me because I am weird. I am afraid people will push me away because I am to nice and they hate it when I do nice things for them without a reason.I am afraid. Afraid. Afraid. And so far what I have been afraid of has happened to me in life.

Washing Hands!

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530. That's what time it is. Man what a week it was been. We had to move from dorm to dorm. It's quiet interesting. They are nicer but have lots of flaws. Anyways all I can think of is the boy bands have won. They are taking over the world. One direction. Girl Bieber. New Edition. Boyz II Men... I mean come on. They are so gay! The world needs more rock bands. Drinking a German Beer, with a Cuban Cigar, In the middle of Paris with a Dominican Broad. She's well put together like a piece by Gershwin. If boy bands would do that they would be awesome!

I Wish...

I wish. Two simple words that can mean a lot. For some it means erasing a past mistake or choice. For some it means something they hope for but not yet have obtained in life. For me it means both. I have made a lot of mistakes in life. I mean A LOT. I have said things that we unkind and done things that were just cruel. I have had addictions and attitudes that were horrible. Mistakes are like ink. Once on paper they are always there and can't be erased. I wish I could take back some of my mistakes. I wish I could re-write some of the things I have done or said. I wish oh how I wish... but the one good thing about all these mistakes is that they have made me who I am today and because of them I have learned life's lessons. Now for second part. I wish that someday I can be good enough for someone. I wish that one day I can marry someone in the Temple. I wish that one day I can find someone who will love me even though they know about all my past mistakes. I wish I could be more popular. I wish oh how I wish... -Benjamin Nelson

Heat

Heat, heat! it's so warm and welcoming like meat. I miss you. Please come back... The heat decided to leave so we couldn't cleave unto it. I miss you. Please come back... The cold will bite us, which isn't right. I miss you. Please come back...

What A Year 2012 Was

What a year 2012 was! I grew in many ways, but I also failed in many areas of my life. I am sorry to those that I was mean to. I am sorry to those that I didn't text or call to say hi to. I am sorry to those who I didn't give enough attention to. I am sorry to those that needed my help, but I passed by because I was to shy or embarrassed to stop and help you when you needed it. I am sorry to those that I passed and didn't even murmur a hello or a "how are you?". I am sorry to those that I haven't befriended yet, the ones that I could have been friends with but chose not to because of my past. I am sorry to those that I didn't lend a listening ear to or a shoulder to lean on when you needed somebody to listen. I AM SORRY! I hope I do better this year. P.S. to all 8 fans of my page, I am now doing this as a normal blog since I have completed a year of pictures. I will still post pictures when I take them, but I will now put up normal posts and they will be more personal. I hope you still decide to be a fan of my blog.