Growing up I was always mean to others and I had horrible anger issues due to the verbal/emotional abuse I went through. Now I am not using this as a excuse for my actions that I chose to make at the time. I said things, did things, and made things happen to people that were terrible. They shouldn't happen to others because nobody deserves to be treated like that no matter who you are.
My addiction started at the age of twelve and that's when my mean side started showing. Being this young I didn't have anyone to really talk to and because of immaturity at that age I didn't know how to emotionaly handle what was happening to me. I became such a mean person That I made others cry by what I did and what I said. I was a trouble maker and I was even suspended during school because I tried to burn down my elementary school. I was drunk with emotional rage that Had gotten out of control and I didn't know how to handle it. I am sorry for that day and I still suffer the consequences for it. Because of this, my addiction, and my abuse I developed PTSD and I still have it to this day. This behavior continued until I graduated high school. Then I met Mary Stuart who became my unofficial counselor, mentor, and friend. She still is to this day. I am truly sorry to those people who fit in this catagory. You know who you are.
I hope whoever reads this can maybe understand why I am the way I am. I hope that all the people that I have hurt and offended can forgive me. I don't expect you understand my actions or anything. I just want you to understand that I am sorry. I hope I can also be forgiven from God for hurting all his children with my actions. For now this is the best way I know how to make restitution to others. I am super introverted and you probably won't hear me talk about this in person. I am trying my hardest to change and make things right.
